What do I deserve?
“The true joy in life is to be a force of fortune instead of a feverish, selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy.” -George Bernard Shaw
Contrary to belief - no one owes you anything. Please remember you have to work every day, every week and every month to reap your rewards. The world owes you nothing. So if you do nothing you will get nothing. Enthusiasm and optimism is great and helpful, but dogged perseverance will get you to your goals. Stay strong and continue with your life pursuits.